Speculation

Well after spending a weekend working on a friend's computer I failed...the spyware reinstalled itself and I was back to square one. Truely frustrating I don't see how companies can think that this method of product exposure is actually helpful. I mean they must get irritated if they get hit with a similar piece of malware. Well after picking it up the next day and armed with more research the machine is finally spyware free. Last night I got stranded at the house during a storm. Finally after 15 minutes it let up enough that I could drive home from Mandan. I could see the sky light up with the lightning as it arced from cloud to cloud. It was simply...beautiful.

I've always been a sucker for scenic nature but some of the lightning strikes were simply breath taking. It was a bright ray of light in an otherwise dismal day. Upon returning home found that I'd just much rather be somewhere else. Another fight with my father about...well nothing. "You don't ever want to help anyone with anything" he fails to realize I just came back from working on a spyware infested computer for 3 hours. That's right I don't help anyone. Frankly sometimes I feel like I'm too damn nice. I should be selfish sometimes as it seems I'm the only one that ever does care about me. I never get the amount of favors I've given out. Its not about an even score, I guess I'd just like to be surprised someday. I'm going to let that train of thought die before I give the wrong impression of myself.

Projects. Well after some evaluation I've narrowed down what I want to work on in preparation for GenCon. Two are fairly easy projects which would require little new rule material mostly adaptation. Time will tell as well as inspiration. I'm taking a break from my MMO design for a bit as I'm suffering major burn out. Perhaps just need to see a movie or play something different to rekindle interest. I've been longing to play with some friends and other people so perhaps I might have to pick up Everquest 2 again or...well something.

Well its late I should wind down to get some sleep, I have a long day in store for me, hopefully it will go better.

The Planewalker

Well its been a while since using this, but I'm actually going to make an effort to use it more not only as a developer journal but also just a place to collect my thoughts.

Well back in January my last long term relationship ended. She said it just wasn't working out anymore, low and behold a week later I hear about some guy in Minot, and than another in her hometown. All throughout my stay in Fargo and then for a year back in Bismarck I was the one accused of cheating or leaving for another, yet here I am months later still single and not exactly looking. I say not exactly as I'd love someone to go do things with and be close to, yet avoid all the sour taste that relationships have left in my mouth. I guess when it comes down to it people get caught up on appearances, what others think and titles. I just want someone I can enjoy my time with, share some similar interests but yet some different ones to expose me to new things. I've yet to find someone here in Bismarck that fits that role.

So I've been keeping myself busy with creative projects. Got in contact with my friend Corey Smith, he has a cyberpunkish setting he's been working on for years. He's also in a slump so we are looking to do some story writing together and perhaps port it over to a webcomic as he's a damn fine artist. I've also been working on a Massively Multiplayer Online game idea. It is fantasy based but merely because its always been my favorite setting. Many of the things I've been working on with it are solving problems that other MMO's currently on the market are falling short. Today I hope to work on the item and crafting system more as it really is a core to how the questing and adventuring skills will stack up.

A conversation with a friend last night really helped get me the urge to update my blog more regularly. She showed me hers and, well I'm inspired. She a very neat person, met her in a friends D & D game and I wanted to learn more about her but at the time my relationship was still rocky. I guess if I wanted to pursue a good friendship I wanted a fresh start and avoid the crap I was dealing with at the time. Heh of course now that I know how things ended in my relationship it wouldn't have mattered. She's coming with on our GenCon trip and I'm greatly looking forward to it, both the convention and the time to spend with her. I guess I really want to learn more about her, its hard to explain but its just a desire to know more. Perhaps many feel that way when the find a new friend.

Well I should wrap this up and get back to writing. I have a goal to finish a couple of projects before GenCon so I have material I can submit in the off chance of being asked. That gives me a month which isn't too bad of a deadline.

Until later this is the Planewalker signing off.

Futher Testing

Testing the use of Blogger more for a development diary for my site. I can link to it though the system though can't actually make posts from there rather than coming to the main site. Kind of a pain though i'll have to fiddle with the options to see if I can get it just the way i want.

Testing of blogger

putting up blogger for my site and going to see if i get get in integrated further with my site